Hell.

When I was a little kid, I went to Sunday school. One of the things they taught us about there was hell. Simply put, be afraid of hell. You don’t want to go there. It’s the worst place imaginable. As you get older, the debate over Hell gets more sophisticated. Is it real? Who goes there? What’s the criteria? Is there anything in between Hell and Heaven? These questions have driven some of the great divides in the history of humanity.

You don’t come here to read my theological beliefs, and with good reason. Like most people with their strongest opinions, mine are ignorant. There are Pastors, Priests, Rabbis, and Imams who have studied the ancient Western scriptures from end to end, both to speak in the pulpit and in rigorous academic settings, to whom someone who wants intelligent thoughts about Hell, should go. They can teach you deep theological thinking, and can give religious teachings on the matter that hopefully can satisfy your curiosity. Of course, there is a problem with this subject- you have no way to truly know. Until you actually confront the question of the afterlife directly yourself, you simply don’t know. I don’t mean fear for your life. I mean literally die.

Tonight as I sit here typing this, at 9:19pm, it feels as though the Lord I have always sworn I believe in is showing me what hell is. I’m sitting in a room at St. Luke’s Anderson Campus in Bethlehem Township, a beautiful, wonderful, incredible facility. Not 18 months ago, the people here literally saved my life. It was different then, though. I came here leaving consciousness, probably hours from exiting this world had I not been brought for care. The people of Suburban Ambulance and this facility did amazing things. I can’t find 95% of them now. If I did, I wouldn’t even know where to begin. But we’re not there anymore. Hell, the person who survived it is gone.

Things were very different 18 months ago and I was very different too. I spent the first three days here barely conscious if at all, in the ICU, thankfully less aware than everyone around me at the situation I was in. When I awakened, I was alive- and that was how I saw the entire situation. I had survived near death, and hell, if I hadn’t, I would have never spent a single conscious moment knowing. But I did survive. I ended up losing a leg and going through a literal living hell, but I reminded myself that I had done that. Being an optimist is fairly easy when you tell yourself you just did the literally hardest thing in life, you beat death. Past success isn’t assurance of future success, but it’s nice to know you have it in you.

The problem after you beat death is that you have to keep living. It’s not like a sports season where that’s the championship and then you have a parade, or the end of “The Return of the Jedi” where you’ve defeated the emperor and have a big space fireworks show, or really anything we do in life with an end point. You move on, and all of life’s challenges are still there for you. You beat death? Great, now learn to live on one leg. You learned how to walk with your prosthetic? Great, now avoid major injuries and problems. You survive and move on to new things that frankly, are hard. It’s really hard. And well, eventually life finds the things you aren’t able to defeat.

So this my second trip back here since that original, or my third trip here in 18 months. The reality is that the law of averages is beating me. This is my second infection since the amputation. Both came after about 6 months on my new legs. There are differences and they are not the same case, but there is something about me that is prone to this, beyond the obvious (you’re diabetic). Right when I start to get some momentum going, things crash. You’ve survived, cool, but now you’re going to deal with frustration, disappointment, and struggle. This won’t be once. It is sadly, the new norm. And if it is not figured out, it will only get worse. Either it has to be right, or eventually the outcome will be catastrophically bad.

So anyway, back to hell. My belief at this point is hell is simply being forced through a repetitive process and continuing to fail. It’s not much different than politics, so maybe I do know a bit about it. If I ever prove it, I probably won’t be here to tell you it. Besides, you’ll have more educated opinions to hear.

The Phillies are Going to be Fine

When the confetti stops falling on Sunday night sports fans everywhere will turn their attention to Florida and Arizona (as well as the ongoing NBA and NHL seasons and Daytona), and the beginning of the long baseball season ahead. The “hot stove” offseason will have basically run it’s course, and now we’ll have to see how teams actually do on the field. Rarely is there a direct correlation between who wins the offseason and who wins the season, though it was fun. In truth, only a small few free agents have the ability to take a mediocre team and make them good on their own, or a good team and make them great. So the real question is, what has actually changed?

If you read the chronically online portion of the Phillies fan base’s posts, you would think the Phillies were an 83 win team that missed the playoffs last year. They certainly were not that. They were a 96 win team that was basically *three or four plays* from beating the best team in baseball in a playoff series last year. Sure, they lost Ranger Suarez, and that will hurt, but besides that, they have not lost any major difference maker from that team who they did not upgrade on in the off-season. The Phillies clearly went into the off-season with a couple of goals, and did most of them. They kept as much of their core together as they could, re-signing Kyle Schwarber and J.T. Realmuto. They wanted to upgrade their bullpen, something they believe they have done by adding Brad Keller and having Jhoan Duran and Jose Alvarado for the full 2026 season, as well as hoping for sleeper big seasons from Orion Kerkering (who despite the throwing error in game four of the NLDS, seemed to be throwing the ball better than anyone in that bullpen in the playoffs) and Rule 5 pick Zach McCambley. They also wanted to get Justin Crawford and Andrew Painter clear paths to help this Phillies team this season, something both will have a shot to do as the season goes on, as might Aidan Miller. They checked off all of those boxes. As for external upgrades, something that some fans are screaming about, the Phillies only seriously pursued one, a 27 year old right-handed bat who they offered the top market value for, before a team came in and offered 150% of their deal in average annual value. That gap is simply not something you match. On the whole though, the Phillies very clearly did the three things they felt were necessary to stay as a 90 plus win, playoff team.

I suppose it is too strong to say people screaming that this team is regressing are wrong, but there isn’t a lot of evidence for what they’re saying. Unless you think the aggregate output of Trea Turner, Bryce Harper, and Kyle Schwarber is going to fall off of a cliff, the lineup isn’t going to be a lot worse, and that’s even more true if you believe in Crawford as much as most of us who watched a lot of him in his time in Reading and Allentown do. Suarez hurts, there is no doubt about that, but Painter has been a super prospect for quite a few years now, and is only really being asked to be a fourth or fifth starter to start the season, not to mention the track record is decent for pitchers having big bounce back seasons in their second season back from Tommy John. You’re going to get slightly more Zack Wheeler than last season if he actually comes back in May and is healthy, so unless you think he’ll never be the same, the pitching staff could possibly even improve- and I haven’t even factored in that almost anything Aaron Nola does would be better than what he did in 2025, and possibly by a significant margin. Throw in a very, very good bullpen on paper and I don’t see why people are so down on this team. There’s no real reason to be.

There are two factors that can change their result from a third straight division title and possible postseason contender to a disappointment. The Mets did not improve as much as some people are acting (they lost their one big time power bat and an elite closer), but the Mets probably come about even on talent with last year’s group, and they frankly should have been much better then, as should have the Braves- a roster that has wildly disappointed two straight years and should be elite if they are healthy and click. That may or may not all happen though, and even if both of those teams are very good this year, the odds that there are four NL teams better than the Phillies for the four spots they could possible win (you can’t win the other two divisions) are slim. The thing that could bring down the Phillies is not something you can ever predict exactly- health. Major injuries, particularly to the big difference makers on this roster, could bring them down. That can happen to any team in the league though, the Dodgers included. Nothing in Schwarber, Turner, Sanchez, Luzardo, Duran, Alvarado, Keller, or Kerkering’s seasons last year suggest that they are at health risk or in some kind of decline right now. I’m slightly worried about Wheeler because his injury was serious, but all signs are that he’s progressing well. I’m slightly worried about Harper because he’s been on the IL every season since his NL MVP season in 2021, but he’s also still very productive when playing and frankly we just need him to be that in October. My big worries, if I have any, are really J.T. Realmuto and Aaron Nola. Realmuto was still very good defensively last year, but I’d love to get just a bit more from his bat (he is a catcher, so he doesn’t have to be incredible). Nola has five years left on his deal, and I’d at least like a couple of them to look like his top ten Cy Young finishes. If those two are even just better than last year, the Phillies could be really outstanding.

The Phillies chose to bet a lot on their young guys for this season, and I have always liked that idea. If Crawford and Painter are what we have been lead to hope, and Otto Kemp does well with increased playing time, I can be very excited about this team. I think a lot of fans and Philadelphia-based media are looking for a reason to be worried about this team, knit-picking about the team not going after aging, frankly only modest impact free agents that probably wouldn’t have wildly changed the odds that this team is good. That’s silly and really won’t matter later. Look, I get that Adolis Garcia doesn’t excite some people, but it would be hard for him to actually be worse than Castellanos was in reality last year. You don’t love Alec Bohm? Fine, but don’t act like he’s a plague on the lineup, or whether he hits fourth or sixth is the difference between them winning 96 again or winning 77. These are small matters. The core of the team is the core. How they perform is basically everything.

I’m bullish. Very, very bullish.

Who Will Replace Governor Sherrill in Congress?

It’s primary day in NJ-11. Yeah, I know, it’s a Thursday in February and doesn’t feel like voting time, especially in New Jersey (who has their primary in June), but you will vote and you will like it if you live in the district formerly represented by Governor Mikie Sherrill. If you’re a Republican, you only have one option, so you get to live out your fetish of living in Russia today. If you’re a Democrat, you literally have 11 actual choices and two names they couldn’t get off the ballot in time. Of course, this is all for a Special Election for the rest of this year, and in June you get to do it again in the real primary, but we’ll see if all of these names actually make it to June.

There are several candidates who are a bit more prominent in this field, but for fairness purposes I’ll start out by giving you the full field first. From The New Jersey Globe:

Eleven Democrats are running in next week’s primary to succeed Sherrill, who resigned from the House in November following her election as New Jersey’s 57th governor: Passaic County Commissioner John Bartlett; U.S. Army veteran Zach Beecher; lawyer and Trump impersonator J-L Cauvin; former Obama White House aide Cammie Croft; Essex County Commissioner Brendan Gill; Morris Township Committeeman Jeff Grayzel; former Rep. Tom Malinowski; former Bernie Sanders for President political director Analilia Mejia; Chatham Township Committeeman Justin Strickland; former Lt. Governor Tahesha Way; and newcomer Anna Lee Williams.  Two others – Maplewood Mayor Dean Dafis and former congressional aide Marc Chaaban – have withdrawn from the race, but their names remain on the ballot.

The winner with face Republican Joe Hathaway, the mayor of Randolph, in the April 16 special election

There is virtually no public polling here, so we’re flying blind into this one. If I had to guess who has a legitimate shot today, I’d say in order it’s Malinowski, Mejia, Gill, Way, and Bartlett. Malinowski has weirdly drawn fire from AIPAC in this race, despite being a long-time ally, over saying future aide to Israel should come with conditions. I once shared an office with Mejia, she’s a very nice and capable woman, though I’d say we have a little different politics, but I wish her well. Gill has had a long career as a powerhouse operative in New Jersey politics and has been a county elected in Essex County for a few years now. Way was literally the Lieutenant Governor last month. Bartlett is a county elected. Way, Gill, and Bartlett all have pockets of support in the district that could win them this race if they show up to vote. Mejia and Malinowski have largely driven the narrative though. A win by Malinowski would weirdly be a win for moderate Democrats and a loss for AIPAC, and there’s a lot of overlap there. A win by Mejia would be a big win for progressives. If I had to bet today, I’d bet on Malinowski winning narrow. But we’ll see tonight.